[No]w [It]’s Start[ing]

Agh. So, I am now realizing that when I go home, and see all my friends again, there is going to be a definite change. I’m not sure why. Maybe the fact that I’ve been gone for 3 months  so much has changed, but it won’t be the fact that I was gone that is going to change anything. Me and my habit have almost been forgotten. A new me is going back. I can’t wait for the return but I wonder am I going to be treated the same? Different, how? Or even worse am I going to be treated as a stranger. Regardless of what is going to happen, I know I’m missed.

Oh what a world, I’m getting to go home. XD When I get there I know something is going to happen. Overwhelming of sort of emotion is going to get the best of me. Really though, I don’t give a fuck at the moment. I need to let these thing out, I’m starting to, but not even slightly, and I’m progressing.

 

Well enough of that. I think I’m going to stop for now. I’ll do a new update//rant//info next time, even though it will be up in the next few days.

 

 

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I wish I wasn’t the way I am.

Idk. Things aren’t good right now.
Kinda feel like the bad part of senoir year all over again. :/
and its horrible. I hate it and i don’t have my friends to rely on, to be there for me to vent, but vent carefully to not even tell them the specifics but what is going on, such as in hypothetical situations.

Ugh. Only if I was able to express myself like a normal person could.

I could say that I’m bleeding on the inside, and I’d assume that you know what I mean.
If anything you know that I’m not doing good.
It’s bad, bad, bad.

FUCKKKKK! <<< like the movie Donnie Darko and Drew Barrymore’s character got fired and walked out the office out of the building screaming our her anger infront of Charita that chinese girl. ha

I kinda feel like that, but a combination of anger and on the verge of depression.
ugh. fuck this shit. :/
I need to leave or something.

everyone is poopie

So, I’m starting to say that a lot now. I think it’s my new word/phrase. Ha, I hope not, but whatever.

Yea, doing videos are way easier than, blogging, but in blogging i think I can say a lot more. eh. whatever.

This was a quick one, I know, nothing on how I’m doing. But nothing important to say, yea there is. but eh. Now is not the appropriate time. :/

blegh.