Clone in a Silo

My name is Clone and I am 15 years old, I’ve been living in this silo for 6 six years now. I fell in here one day trying to refill the bins for the chicken feed. For years I have hoped for my escape but as I have assumed my father keeps pouring the feed in. I somehow am surviving in here regardless of the little or no oxygen in here and the feed keeps me from starving, I also have developed some power to transmit my brain wave frequencies into the nearby computers sending messages to who ever I can reach, and exploring the “World Wide Web” as you call it causing me to greatly gain information and surpass the intelligence of the worlds smartest people knowing everything and every tid bit of every event to the smallest detail that has happened in this world, I even have the answers to worlds greatest questions but the thought of explaining it to you world cause catastrophic events to occur which may lead to my escape, but i dare not ensue.  I know this might sound strange but I think I know you, even though I haven’t met you because when I kill you your true self will come out and I will know you better than even your close friends and relatives did. So until the day we meet, I can’t wait to lead you into the path of chaos and destruction.

boo.you whore.

so i find out today, Ashley is coming back next Wednesday. yay! i haven’t really talked to anyone, really anyone since she left. that hoe. i can’t believe she left. but I’ll only be getting to see her for like 2 days because i have to go to a wedding… and i really don’t want to :/ whatever.

And for the first time in 6 years… i got a backpack, and actual backpack, i guess i got tired of messenger bags for those damn 6 years and i possibly might have scoliosis, maybe not but one shoulder feels higher than the other. well with that I’m getting another on Monday too. the one i got today is just a backup in case i don’t find one.

tomorrow, i will try to use a sewing machine. i need to re-attach a button to my short my mom said she was going to do almost 2 years ago, good thing they had a string of the to tie. ha.

Hmm well yea… i guess

retroland

So a couple of days ago I stumbled upon retrotogo.com they have awesome things and I want them in my room.

Nintendo Wall Graphics – turn your house into a Mario game

[But I think with everything else... a plain wall would do ok.]

George Nelson-style Girotondo Suction Clock

The Shelly chair – mid-century style meets modern design

Cavour writing desk by Carlo Mollino

Lego-based Desktop Calendar

Zanotta Sacco – bag a 1960s classic

Pac-Man carpet

[well i think i could do without the carpet]

Feltris Blocks – Tetris-style cushions

Nintendo NES controller pillow case

Hmm… so i think my room would look a lot better with all these in there or I think it would with everything else in there too.

So in due time, I will be getting these things. =]]

Goodbye, Horses

“Would you fuck me? I’d fuck me. I’d fuck me hard.”
Goodbye, Horses by Lazzarus, Q & Garvey play in the background while Jay puts on chap stick, recreating a scene from Silence of the Lambs. I love that part of the movie, Clerks II that is. =] the whole collection of songs to the soundtrack are great, I mean come on, Kevin Smith directed the movie.

Yup yup I love that song, my kind of taste has that contemporary and nostalgia feel to it, like Nepolean  Dynamite’s Forever Young by Alphaville  is playing during the prom or formal I’m guessing. ha, I just love it.

Well I was thinking that I want to make a video like that, but my resources are low i need atleast 2-3 more friends help me do it and I think they gladly would. So, I think I’m going to have to wait ’till school starts. eh :/

twitter.

is currently down for maintenance.

i love the artistic feel to twitter with their clouds and the little people, i assume it’s most likely the way the pictures are drawn, pleasing to the eye<<<<[i went to the eye doctor today, guess I'm getting new contacts] it has a childish but more adult like feel to it, and i like it. =]]

well i did want to go on twitter and tell everyone how my sister is in my room doing “inventory” on her MAC “collection”, but i guess not.

oh. so i thought I’d include my latest happening. my toe! it has been damage quite well by those curved bricks that are used for to trail something for garden or backyards or whatever. yea! i can’t even turn on the sprinklers without getting hurt. i unfortunately kicked it barefoot =[[. skin got pulled back, blood was dripping out, it hurt like a bitch.

well after everything was cleaned up. i had to CUT the damn skin off that was ripped off it was already turning black for some reason, maybe the blood, it hurt but i didn't want to go to the doctor so, i did it myself and bandaged it...

and today my mom made me walk from downtown [went to the eye doctor] to my house which is about 2 miles away with m knowingly hurt bleeding toe.

well i keep telling her that i can’t do anything now beacuase i am on disability, but she make me anyway, how sad.

AccMPlISHment

The feeling, I might say is terrible at its least. Regardless of how good it may be, is a total disregard to me and how I am at most.

Even though sometimes things aren’t technically “accomplished” they’re finished which seems to be a more happy in terms of that, knowing that you can go on ahead with new task. In all goals are one important substance in any persons life, without it they do not have the strive, the purpose for a life, for that fact one to even live because what you do makes you.

It’s one emotion and doing that I can personally live without, having to reestablish goals which may make me sound somewhat lazy to a point. With that the whole accomplishing feel is somewhat sad never being able to fix or change what you have done, or even doing so won’t change the fact that it has been done, because all you can do is move forward and leave it alone.

So it sort of sounds as though I’m afraid of what do now, but it’s because I am having a portion of my life scheduled to a point and then not told what to do after. Well I can say as others can, the decision is mine, but is it the right one only time will tell… time will tell. I just now have to let it play  though, make some options, pick one and wait and see what happens.

smear it on tiles.

So, at the moment I feel as though everyone is getting tired of me, or well except a few, and if so I get it, I totally get it. I even think my own mother is, which I think is pretty sad, pathetic almost. But as it seems, it might just be me, or maybe I just need a void to be filled I need someone to be there.

Well with that, I’m waiting for Gretchen to tell me when the painting can begin, and I haven’t seemed to hang out or chill with her so that day will soon come.

Oh and I learned something new, if you put Styrofoam in acetone it melts like butter, or well seems to disappear completely, it’s like magic. [acetone is in nail polish remover if you wanted to try it]

&&& Today I herd about that whole Youtube/Google/Viacom court thing with a federal court judge demanding Google to hand over all Youtube user names, ip addresses, and other private information which should only be kept to the person, about video views and copyright infringements violations. I personally think it’s total bull, not that myself has done anything I am not worried about, but with that they could undoubtedly charged every single person who violates any of the upload terms, I just have no words to describe how ridiculous this is and for what I might ask, for what!?

Hmm… as for today, or this morning, I have nothing else to say or somewhat express in writings for the time being so yeah.

Oh oh oh! and i guess Happy 4th of July.